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I'm leaving korea.

 In early 2017 I moved to Korea with not much idea of what I was doing and with no plans. I didn't expect teaching English to last more than a year or two, but I also had no idea what I was going to do with my life. A few months later in August, I met the love of my life. Soon thereafter we moved in together and my life changed, for the worse (not because of him!). I've always had a fairly dependent personality. Growing up with no self esteem or sense of independence is a recipe for disaster. I was entering adulthood and my first full time job while also moving across the planet. Although I had been to Korea before, it was still a big transition. I fell into a toxic cycle of attention-seeking, immature behavior. I relied on him for literally everything. I couldn't do my job. I resigned anyway in order to stay here and stay with not only him, but my new comfort zone. Korea coddled me. It allowed me to avoid the hard truths of growing up. Everything in Korea is easy for us ...

My First Bike Journey: Seoul[서울] -> Gapyeong[가평]

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Last weekend I embarked with my boyfriend on my very first ever long-distance bike journey, from Seoul to Gapyeong. My boyfriend is a pro traveler, having backpacked across pretty much the entire planet and across 30-something different countries. I, on the other hand, am a big baby and not a great traveler. So, he decided he wasn't going to help me with this trip at all other than booking the pension. It was all up to me to make sure we got to Gapyeong in one piece. I saw this as a great opportunity to work on my mental health in the face of new situations and challenges. A few years ago, if I tried to do something like this, it would've been disastrous. Anxiety attacks and mental breakdowns galore. I know, Seoul-Gapyeong is a very easy beginners course and the odds of something going wrong are virtually zero. However, I struggled with the most basic things that were even the tiniest bit out of my comfort zone. I was excited for this challenge, and I was determined to be...